4th Year.

Ah. Back to Uni in 10 days. What am I doing. This year is optional. I've got the damn degree. I could get a job. I keep thinking it will be good for me, change specialisations, a new challenge, learn some discipline, start learing some organisation skills finally. But I don't have to!!! Ah, still feeling pretty crushed, its a bit hard to have faith in myself right now. This isn't good. What the hell I am going to do? Re-invent the wheel? I need to have some faith in myself. I wish I was religious. I don't want to go for a bit then drop out. But I'm really not sure if I have a years worth of 4th year collections in me. I want to work more broadly than fashion. AH!!! What to do. My best friends are going to Italy, and I think I won't be able to afford it, but I probably could. Fuck Uni, I want to go to Italy! I can just see it now, in July, my 4 closest friends all in different states and continents. I will go crazy. I need confirmation, if only from myself, that I'm doing the right thing.