It's been a while
Probably because I don't feel like complaining anymore.
This week has been good. Simone has been down, we saw some bands, had a few drinks, I could go into the nights but no need, all I need to say is I'm digging myself out of the hole I fell in to. I am leaving in 17 days, It's weird to think I might order something for a customer at work and not be there when it comes in.
Who knows whats going to change in 3 months?
Monday 28 May 2007
Wednesday 9 May 2007
Maine!!
I'm going to Maine!!!
Finally got a placement, I will be a costumer there, seing as its on the border it looks like I'll be going to Canada as well. For a 20 minutes after the lady rang me I felt like old me again, excited and ambitous. Bring on America!!
Oh yes I need to add more to the list
Visit a Castle in Germany
Get Knighted- For something like contribution to Australian Culture and Indentity.
Grow REALLY long hair. And miraculously thick as well.
Finally got a placement, I will be a costumer there, seing as its on the border it looks like I'll be going to Canada as well. For a 20 minutes after the lady rang me I felt like old me again, excited and ambitous. Bring on America!!
Oh yes I need to add more to the list
Visit a Castle in Germany
Get Knighted- For something like contribution to Australian Culture and Indentity.
Grow REALLY long hair. And miraculously thick as well.
Monday 7 May 2007
22
isn't much different from 21. Wasn't that greatest of days, my siblings keep on treating me like crap, I thought maybe one day they wouldn't but know. But enough whinging, I just thought I'd write a list of things I'd like to do in my lifetime, seeing as I'm getting Old
Learn How to play Chess
Learn how to play tennis
Get a Medal in Ballroom dancing
Have babies and all that jazz
See Europe
Visit every state and Territory of Australia.
Work on a Tv Show
Tour with a festival
Be a Brand Manager of some labels
Have a holiday place with Chelsea
Name my kid after a jemstone... Ha ha
Live somewhere that you can catch trams in in MelBurn
Meet my dream man... Ha ha
Run a workplace, and have optional nap time. And hat wearing days
Be a bride,,,smaid. Fuck marriage.. Not yet anyway.
Graduate!!! Ha I already can. This will happen.
Go to a plaster fun house again
Have killer kids parties for my own.
anything Else I will add later.
Happy Birthday Me.
Learn How to play Chess
Learn how to play tennis
Get a Medal in Ballroom dancing
Have babies and all that jazz
See Europe
Visit every state and Territory of Australia.
Work on a Tv Show
Tour with a festival
Be a Brand Manager of some labels
Have a holiday place with Chelsea
Name my kid after a jemstone... Ha ha
Live somewhere that you can catch trams in in MelBurn
Meet my dream man... Ha ha
Run a workplace, and have optional nap time. And hat wearing days
Be a bride,,,smaid. Fuck marriage.. Not yet anyway.
Graduate!!! Ha I already can. This will happen.
Go to a plaster fun house again
Have killer kids parties for my own.
anything Else I will add later.
Happy Birthday Me.
Sunday 6 May 2007
Growing up
As my life continues further to implode, I realise more than ever that I need my friends, and I'm burning them by being the shit person I am write now.
Yet again I lost my phone, bag was stolen this time. I feel so high maintence, and I feel like I'm losing everything.
I shouldn't complain, stealing is shit but It happens, I'm not dying. I've had enough of falling of the top of the world I thought I was one, I've just gotta climb back up there, make a proper shot of being the person I want to be, not the person I once was, thats gone, but better, stronger, wiser I spose. Who I've been hates who I am. That's going to change as a 22 year old.
I feel that I have less and less to leave behind when I go away, no-ones going to miss me how I am. I don't have to stay stuck in this trap forever though. I hope.
Yet again I lost my phone, bag was stolen this time. I feel so high maintence, and I feel like I'm losing everything.
I shouldn't complain, stealing is shit but It happens, I'm not dying. I've had enough of falling of the top of the world I thought I was one, I've just gotta climb back up there, make a proper shot of being the person I want to be, not the person I once was, thats gone, but better, stronger, wiser I spose. Who I've been hates who I am. That's going to change as a 22 year old.
I feel that I have less and less to leave behind when I go away, no-ones going to miss me how I am. I don't have to stay stuck in this trap forever though. I hope.
Friday 4 May 2007
FUCK YOU WORLD!!!
AH!
Yet another whinging post. I feel like screaming. I cried again at work, I wanted to tell all my co-workers and apologise, say, NO really, I'm not like this, I didn't cry this much at my old work, the old Eloise wouldn't deal with it this way, I promise, don't think I'm pathetic, Really!!!
I don't want to be this sook with a chip on her shoulder about the person I used to be and how miserable I am and blah blah, but seriously, this year is just not getting better. I have no life except for work, where I thought I was valued,so now that has turned to shit when the manager went on holidays, so there's really not much left to my life right now.
It all started when a customer came in who I recognised, she had a Pakenham look about her, but I just gave her a smile. She then asked how my boyfriend was. Wtf?? Who was this woman? What boyfriend? Turns out it was Stuart's bosses wife, I can't believe I forgot. SO I say, Ah, no, he dumped me in January. I vaguely remember Stuart saying this lady was 'Very Sad' when she heard we broke up. AHH!!! More lies and full-of-shitness! Why!! So that rattled me.
And then....
The rosters come back, only to find that the new girl, nice as she is and all, has been given 30 hours and week and I've been cut back to 20. What the fuck once again?
I quickly become irate, I mean what the fuck I've worked there 6 months, is there no loyalty?
I could go into a million reasons why this happened, but the truth is I don't fuck know. Where is the love I ask?
Yet another whinging post. I feel like screaming. I cried again at work, I wanted to tell all my co-workers and apologise, say, NO really, I'm not like this, I didn't cry this much at my old work, the old Eloise wouldn't deal with it this way, I promise, don't think I'm pathetic, Really!!!
I don't want to be this sook with a chip on her shoulder about the person I used to be and how miserable I am and blah blah, but seriously, this year is just not getting better. I have no life except for work, where I thought I was valued,so now that has turned to shit when the manager went on holidays, so there's really not much left to my life right now.
It all started when a customer came in who I recognised, she had a Pakenham look about her, but I just gave her a smile. She then asked how my boyfriend was. Wtf?? Who was this woman? What boyfriend? Turns out it was Stuart's bosses wife, I can't believe I forgot. SO I say, Ah, no, he dumped me in January. I vaguely remember Stuart saying this lady was 'Very Sad' when she heard we broke up. AHH!!! More lies and full-of-shitness! Why!! So that rattled me.
And then....
The rosters come back, only to find that the new girl, nice as she is and all, has been given 30 hours and week and I've been cut back to 20. What the fuck once again?
I quickly become irate, I mean what the fuck I've worked there 6 months, is there no loyalty?
I could go into a million reasons why this happened, but the truth is I don't fuck know. Where is the love I ask?
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