A book told me I had to write my feelings down.

So here I am after said book said it would be a good idea.
I'm not sure where to start.
I have been assigned at week long break from work, and also advised not to drink.
Great.
Seeing as most of this blog is mostly about boys, and I started this blog as I had no-one to talk to, I shall continue with the trend.
I was discussing how most the boys I'd met, were boys from the same scene from the same clubs, but all making impact on my life.
I think people come to your life for a reason, and you have a lesson to be learnt from them. And sometimes that lesson is not always a good one.

We'll start with Benny. You taught me that sometimes, you are just too young for someone, and the lessons they have learnt cannot be undone, no matter how much you want them to.

Then L. I wasn't in love with you, even though you thought I was. Adam summed it up well. 'Sometimes, some people, just don't like some people'. No matter how many jager bombs you buy me I'll hopefully never reneg. Lesson learnt- Some people are just not into you!

N. We weren't ever anything, but you inspired me to look for a mental match in life, even if that means weirdos like us. Please keep spreading your infectious energy and passion for punk rock. Lesson learnt- Be yourself.

Next we'll go with S. Ahhh such impact you had on my life. I liked you, I really did, but I knew it wasn't meant to be. Thanks for apoligising for ruining my life, you broke my little heart and it took a while to get over. You took my youthful innocence and I've never got it back. Lesson learnt- Don't go out with someone that doesn't make you feel yourself.

L. You liked me even though I thought I was a piece of shit at the time. I'm sorry we were shit to each other, it could have been good. Lesson learnt- Some things will remain unresolved.

R. I'm not sure if I still dislike you, but please don't convince a girl they are your soulmate and then ignore them ever again. Don't fake it. Lesson learnt- Don't go out with someone when you are not over the last guy, you will be blind to reality.

A. Quite the rare bird. I am really not sure what lesson you are, good or bad . We'll see in time.

Ok that blog was really not what I am feeling right now, but hey, it killed some time. I'm not sure anyone reads this anyway.
Peace.

Your life's a crime scene, and it won't help to blame me...

So I thought I'd start a blog post with a Bayside quote, seeing as when I lose my shit I feel like my life is a bit of a crime scene.

I have learnt FARRRRRRRRRrr too many lessons this year, I am just about done, let the good times roll, please?

-Don't study a highly specialised field and expect a graduate job.
-Don't rely on others.
-Don't go into business with friends.
-Don't forget to put oil and water in your car.
-Don't expect all friendships to stay the same. Things change.
-Don't be impatient with boys, and expect too much too soon.
-Don't put your iPhone in a small pocket than go to the toilet.
-Don't stalk boys ex girl friends facebooks, they may write nasty comments, but you can't retaliate due to being a lurker in the first place.
-Don't drink more than 2 glasses on wine in one sitting. It makes you spew.
-Don't wear your Melissa's for all of the night.
-Don't forget to put your wallet ACTUALLY in your bag.

Far to much learning, now to get on with living.

September.

Oh Gosh, its September, 2/3rds of the year is already over?
What the fuck am I doing??
I am about to fall into a big hole, someone stop me please.
There are bright lights on the horizon, I just can't see them right now.