Monday, 30 April 2007


Its been a while since I've been here so I thought I'd give it a shot. I'm really starting to doubt that 2007 is my year. I just can't win! The wisdom tooth thing went horribly. Well, it went fine, no damaged nerves or death from anesthetic, but the days following I did anything but recover. I just kept getting worse and in the end wanted to go back to the hospital. Turns out I had an infection, I my body was overdosed on paracetmol. Fun times, I was even sicker than the wedding/alcohol poisoning weekend.

But I'm on the mend now, and have had much time to reflect. On whats happening now and what I used to do. I'm getting used to this non uni lifestyle, its insane, you finish work and then you go home. And thats it, about 5 hours till you go to bed, and you can do WHATEVER YOU WANT. I could get used to this. Haven;t really got used to having money because its all going on my trip, bills and birthday presents, but I guess thats a good thing, so If I do go back to studying it won't be such a shock. My friends are sick of hearing it, but yes, I still don't understand how I can be this busy superwoman with no spare time, to having an abundance of spare time and less stress, and a relationship crumbling at the quiet point in my life, not the busy times. Just for clarification, the crumble didn't cause the quiet.

But I'm enjoying the quiet. I am loving work, best job I've ever had, though I'm a bit worried I need to do a bit of shift swapping this week, I won't be in the good books. They hired a new chick in the week I was away sick, I hope I don't lose any shifts, I'm getting used to a job we're I'm valued and not dispenable. I still feel that guilt that I'm not achiecing anything and I'm standing static, but I must remind myself that I'm having a rest, I've done alot more than alot of people my age and this year isn't all bad, if it all works out I'll be in the states for 3 months, come home with a nice debt though. Oh well, you only live once.

I want to be more optimistic, have hope for what is coming, but I don't know what is so its hard. I've plenty to look forward to, if only I had more cash to enjoy it, But hey, money's not everything. But Aprils nearly over, bring on May, its looking go so far. Birthday, Simone, Alexis, The Used. Then June Brings America. Yay for 2007.

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